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Losing Love

Sep 18, 2005

tagged as: Community, Love, Psychology

I have been looking for love (and lamenting my lack of it, in terms of the females) so intensely recently, that in a superbly dismaying irony, I have actually been unloving those around me [yes, that was a transitive verb]. I have been withdrawn, aloof, sarcastic, ungentle, and careless in my interactions with my community, and I was so wrapped up in myself, so enjoying my melancholy depression, that I didn't even notice until someone called me out on it last night.

It doesn't feel good to realize that you have been treating people with less than the fullest of respect; and it feels even worse to not know how to go about changing, or whether you even want to. Christ help me.

» posted by Jonathan Lipps on September 18, 2005, at 7:55 pm

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Peter Marshall:

September 18, 2005, 10:25 pm

At least someone called you out on it.

Pavi Thomas:

September 19, 2005, 9:19 pm

You know what, I do just that from time to time. And sometimes even toward my children. Christ help me, indeed.

Jonathan Lipps:

September 20, 2005, 1:54 am

It seems like such a simple, basic mistake to make, though, that I always feel so very foolish in making it. I suppose I just need to come to grips with the fact that even I am foolish! I don't know in how many other states Christ would be able to help me as I've asked, anyway.

Dave Williams:

September 21, 2005, 7:16 am

I get that way sometimes when I'm overly concerned about the thoughts and feelings of this machine that I'm typing upon and leave human beings a little lower on the priority list. As much time as I spend computing, I'm sure you're there more. Have you considered a weekend or more in a technofast? Maybe this is already a part of your routine.

Jonathan Lipps:

September 21, 2005, 5:21 pm

I actually get technofasts pretty frequently--we do weekends in Yosemite or other beautiful places often. No, I think computers are more or less incidental to what I'm talking about.